Monday, August 1, 2011

I don't want to go back to school. I can't wait for school.

I am so completely torn about school. On one hand, I miss my law school friends terribly. I also miss financial aid. A lot. On the other, I get to do basically everything my boss does, the only exception being that I can't make appearances and I have to stamp his name on documents. I feel all lawyerly and I like it.

But, I am getting tired of working so many hours. I miss my family and coming home before 6:30. I miss cooking dinner and suddenly we're almost through with grilling season and we've used our grill only about 5 times.

This fall I am going to try and keep the firm job (if you can call one lawyer and his partner who just took the bar and won't be admitted until October a "firm") and be a Westlaw rep. My classes aren't too heavy, so I am looking forward to them. I really think I can handle it all but I see many mental health days in my future.

And then there is Abby, my amazingly adorable, precious, little girl. I've decided to be a bit more personal on here, so here is a picture.

She is just so fantastic. She counted in Spanish the other day from one to ten. I didn't even know she could do that. We've been working on potty training and her language skills just keep getting better and better. She still goes right to bed with no fuss and rarely any argument. She sleeps through the night with only the occasional nightmare. I cannot believe how lucky we are.

This month we realized we had run through our savings and that suddenly our lack of full time paycheck for me (or the financial aid I normally get during the school year) had put us in a tough position. We could have done a cash advance on a credit card, but I really didn't want to do that.

So, at 2am on Saturday, I decided we should have a yard sale in the morning. I got up and collected items and posted listings on craigslist and our local newspaper. By noon, we had made 300 bucks. This took care of our immediate financial problem and I felt very accomplished. Sometimes you just have to get creative, now if we can just hold on until school starts we'll be in good shape until next summer. Knowing now what I didn't know then, I will be more wise about how I spend my financial aid.

*sigh* I love fall and I love "back to school" but the idea of being stuck in a classroom again is kind of bumming me out.